I call upon the fan fic writing gods to bless you with the perseverance to finish one of your unfinished drafts.Â
May your fingers dance along the letters upon your device with ease, may the devil of distraction stay far from you, and may your work not need much editing.
I pass this blessing upon every fan fic writer out there.
Miss Major, a Black trans woman whoâs been an activist for LGBT communities for DECADES, has had her fundraiser up for FIVE YEARS by know, which is for her to be able to retire with dignity. Not with luxury, but with dignity.
Weâre talking about a lady who was at Stonewall, the incident that the white kweers love to talk about. Sheâs dedicated her whole life to LGBT rights and other causes, sheâs done WAY more for LGBT rights than a stupid white gay show could ever dream to do, and that if it actually isnât a scam.
And that shit gets funded within two days? 15,000 in less than two fucking days and Miss Major hasnât reached her goal of 200,000 since May 2013.
Sheâs at 117,991 dollars as of now, after more than five years.
If people had donated a little over 210 dollars each two days sheâd be reaching her goal JUST NOW. If this Butch Pal thing fundraiser had been open for about the same time that Miss Majorâs has, getting 15,000 each two days, in those same five years theyâd get around 14,175,000 dollars.
If Miss Major had steadily received 15,000 dollars each two days, she would have reached her goal within less than a month.
But I guess an unrealistic dumb white show made by transmisogynists and antisemites who hate poor people and threat 17 years old kids for criticizing them is way more important than giving back to a woman whoâs done so much for LGBT rights for such a long time.
I feel it might be a little too easy to misconceive what I mean when I say âYour pain doesnât make you specialâ into meaning âyou donât deserve help or acknowledgementâ which is NOT what I mean when I say that at all. So I thought Iâd paint this scenario so itâs a little clearer;
Imagine you had something truamatic happen to you which resulted in losing both your legs. This is a terrible thing to happen to anyone, and of course its very hard. But now imagine you discover thereâs going to be a marathon in your town the next day. And you decide youâre gonna be part of it. Not as a goal of âI am going to get fit enough to participate in a marathon!â or anything like that. Just deciding the day before âI also want to do that!â without any preperation on your part at all.
And then you arrive at the marathon. And upon entering you then declare that it is UNFAIR that everyone else gets to use their legs because YOU had a truamatic accident and lost yours. You refuse to use prosphetics, you refuse to train your thighs to build up their strength, you refuse to get physical therapy. But you INSIST that you will take part in this marathon (without using prosphetics) on a whim without any prep at all. But itâs UNFAIR to you that the other 200 participants get to use their legs. So you demand that ALL 200 other participants in the marathon have to crawl on their knees and elbows. Because YOU suffered a truamatic event, nobody else is allowed doing something you find uncomfortable. But at the same time, you refuse to do any work on your part to adapt to the situation, or to find areas in which the situation has been adapted for you (like joining a marathon for special needs runners)
And then someone in the marathon, who HAS done the work, and is wearing prosphetics, and who took many many months to train to take part in the marathon says âhey. I also lost my legs. I want to do this marathon because it is a goal of mine/I like running even though I do it differently/I want to stay fitâ YOU throw a tantrum saying âNo! Even though we have the same injury from a truamatic event you are not allowed to run in the marathon either!!! Not unless you ALSO crawl on your hands and knees!!! You are NOT ALLOWED to use the marathon to get healthier! And having lost your legs too you should KNOW what its like!! and how DARE you tell me I should not demand a situation caters to MY needs when I am the one who decided to participate on my own, without taking any precautions!!â
This is what I mean with âYour pain does not make you specialâ.
It does NOT mean you donât deserve help, or consideration, or acknowledgement, or support, or encouragement.
What it MEANS is, just because you have suffered some serious trauma, you CANNOT exert your needs onto the entire rest of the world without taking responsibility for yourself. You cannot make your trauma someone elseâs responsibility without any say on their part.
If you have suffered something truamatic in your past, and then decide to be an active part of a fandom, but refuse to use blacklists, refuse to stay away from content that upsets you, refuse to set up boundaries for yourself, and THEN send hate and death threats to people that makes content you find triggering, you are making your pain someoneâs responsibility without taking any responsibility for yourself even to the smallest degree. Even if people creating this content you find triggering may have had similar traumatic experiences to you. Even if they make this content to work through their pain. Even if they are using it as a form of self therapy or coping mechanic. If you are behaving in a way where you believe your pain makes you more important than literally every other person in a fanbase, then the response âyour pain does not make you specialâ is something you need to sit down and think about.
Anyway, I hope that clarifies things a little bit.
If you went through something traumatic, or if you struggle with mental health problems, or anything else that makes things difficult for you, you deserve help, support, care, and patience. But no amount of trauma makes you a more important person than someone else.
Do not hurt other people, because you feel your pain justifies it.
A lot of the time when people give advice intended to relieve anxiety, they suggest doing ârelaxingâ things like drawing, painting, knitting, taking a bubble bath, coloring in one of those zen coloring books, or watching glitter settle to the bottom of a jar.
This advice is always well-intentioned, and Iâm not here to diss people who either give it or who benefit from it. But it has never, ever done shit for me, and this is because it goes about resolving anxiety in the completely wrong way. Â
THE WORST THING YOU CAN DO when suffering from anxiety is to do a ârelaxingâ thing that just enables your mind to dwell and obsess more on the thing thatâs bothering you. You need to ESCAPE from the dwelling and the obsession in order to experience relief.
You can drive to a quiet farm, drive to the beach, drive to a park, or anywhere else, but as someone who has tried it all many, many times, trust meâitâs a waste of gas. You will just end up still sad and stressed, only with sand on your butt. You canât physically escape your sadness. Your sadness is inside of you. To escape, you need to give your brain something to play with for a while until you can approach the issue with a healthier frame of mind.Â
People who have anxiety do not need more time to contemplate, because we will use it to contemplate how much we suck.
In fact, you could say thatâs what anxiety isâhyper-contemplating. When we let our minds run free, they run straight into the thorn bushes. Our minds are already running, and they need to be controlled. They need to be given something to do, or theyâll destroy everything, just like an overactive husky dog ripping up all the furniture.Â
Therefore, I present to you:Â
THINGS YOU SHOULD NOT DO WHEN ANXIOUS
âGo on a walk
âWatch a sunset, watch fish in an aquarium, watch glitter, etc.
âGo anywhere where the main activity is sitting and watching
âDraw, color, do anything that occupies the hands and not the mind
âDo yoga, jog, go fishing, or anything that lets you mentally driftÂ
âDo literally ANYTHING that gives you great amounts of mental space to obsess and dwell on things.
THINGS YOU SHOULD DO WHEN ANXIOUS:
âDo a crossword puzzle, Sudoku, or any other mind teaser game. Crosswords are the best.
âWrite something. It doesnât have to be a masterpiece. Write the Top 10 Best Restaurants in My City. Rank celebrities according to Best Smile. Write some dumb Legolas fanfiction and rip it up when youâre done. Itâs not for publication, itâs a relief exercise that only you will see.Â
âRead something, watch TV, or watch a movieâas long as itâs engrossing. Donât watch anything which you can run as background noise (like, off the top of my head, Say Yes to The Dress.) As weird as it seems, American Horror Story actually helps me a lot, because it sucks me in.Â
âMasturbate. Yes, Iâm serious. Your mind has to concentrate on the mini-movie itâs running. It canât run Sexy Titillating Things and All The Things That are Bothering Me at the same time. (âŠI hope. If it can, thenâŠignore this one.)Â
âDo math problemsâliterally, google âalgebra problems worksheetâ and solve them. If you havenât done math since 7th grade this will really help you. I donât mean with math, I mean with the anxiety.Â
âPlay a game or a sport with someone that requires great mental concentration. Working with 5 people to get a ball over a net is a challenge which will require your brain to turn off the Sadness Channel.Â
âPlay a video game, as long as itâs not something like candy crush or Tetris thatâs mindless.Â
THINGS YOU SHOULD DO DURING PANIC ATTACKS ESPECIALLY:
âList the capitals of all the U.S. states
âList the capitals of all the European countries
âList all the shapes you can see. Or all the colors.Â
âList all the blonde celebrities you can think of.
âPull up a random block of text and count all the As in it, or Es or whatever. Â
Now obviously, I am not a doctor. I am just an anxious person who has tried almost everything to help myself.  Iâve finally realized that the stuff people recommend never works because this is a disorder that thrives on free time and free mental space. When I do the stuff I listed above, I can breathe again. And I hope it helps someone here too.Â
(Now this shouldnât have to be said but if the âdo notsâ work for you then by all means do them. Theyâve just never worked for me.)
This wouldâve been great an hour ago
If your anxiety includes rapid heartbeat for no reason then it may help to exercise! It helps for me because Iâm focused on whatever moves Iâm doing and breathing, and it gives my heart rate a reason to be that high so that I can start the slow cooking down process and (hopefully) bring that heart rate down with it. Look up a quick cardio workout on YouTube or something and just do it in your room!
This is so, SO true.Â
All âdoing something relaxingâ ever did for me was give my brain MORE free time to FREAK THE FUCK OUT.Â
I like how this boil down to grabbing something then tell the brains weasels to GO FETCH YOU PIECES OF SHIT
Does anyone genuinely call their siblings sis, sister, little/big sis, bro, brother, little/big brother etc. as constantly as this appears to be portrayed in media? Iâm extremely sceptical. Now, affectionally addressing them by something like âslugâ, âtoadâ, âfoolâ, and âbitchâ, or even dare I say it, their gotdamn name, is, from my experience, so much more natural.Â
ok guys, reblog and put in the tag how you name your siblingsÂ